the girl from nowhere

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Yes, there is a lot of Jakob because I LOVE HIM AND HE IS BRILLIANCE.
Also, yeah Ellenore's starting to grow on me.

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I have survived yet another (not-so-hellish) term (: Exams ended on Monday and while that paper was rather annoying, Aaron's belated birthday BBQ with the Caderas people after was immensely amusing!

After waking up at 2.30pm yesterday (oh the wonderful luxuries of freedom!), I bummed around for a bit before going for the ACF Budget Briefing which was a complete an utter bore. But then again, I'm not the financial secretary, so I suppose if I found it interesting I'd probably need to get my head examined. They said it would end at 8.30pm, but it ended an hour earlier, so I window-shopped at Raffles City for a bit.

Made my way down to Union Square after that. I hate that they've now done away with the "free entry before 9pm" policy, because now I have to pay $9.55 if I go on any day other than Wednesday. And Wednesdays are so crowded and not conducive for dancing! How frustrating. When I got there the guys were standing outside waiting for more of us to show up for "critical mass" because it was empty and depressing inside. But about an hour after we finally went in, the place started filling up. It wasn't that bad a night! I sucked majorly at first (which was to be expected given that I haven't danced in 2.5 weeks), but it got better as the night progressed.

Today I went to Ikea with Steph! We have decided that from now on we shall make it a point to organise shopping trips to unconventional places! Oh man we spent like...4 hours meandering through Ikea looking at ALL THE PRETTY THINGS! Managed to get my sister a Christmas present, so it was a fruitful trip.

And now! I shall go and figure out what to wear later. IT IS TIME FOR ZOUK! Hooray!

My grandma just called and my mum picked up the phone. Thinking that it was me, my grandma asked if she could "talk to your mummy". My mum screeched "YOU ARE MY MUMMY!!!"

lulz.

ps. did I mention that my paper today was from 9am - 11am? I reached home at 10.40am after finishing the paper omfg.

Just watched Joseph Gordon Levitt's SNL monologue from yesterday. While not immensely funny, anything that references Singin' In The Rain (with almost identical set pieces!!) is completely awesome in my book (:

Post-exam plans: Re-watch Singin' In The Rain. Also watch Broadway Melody and Jean Harlow's Libeled Lady. Bought those 2 DVDs ages ago, but haven't gotten round to watching them.

I want to watch this so bad!

mummy:
Lizzie just left. The house is suddenly so quiet it's kind of creepy. Help....

me:
Play loud music and dance around in a shirt, underwear and socks a la Jerry Maguire!

mummy:
Okay, will try that but if they take me to the funny farm, pls visit me.

me:
Okay! You know I'll always love you, strait jacket or not! <3

She rocked her monologue on SNL. Everything else was kinda painful to watch though. But I love her for this Monologue!

Name: elaina
Date: 11/5/2009
Colorgenics Number: 20156374

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You are trying to establish yourself and make an impact despite the fact that everything around you seems to be against you - putting up barriers, but don't be unduly concerned: you have the right ideas and come what may, they will soon be manifested and appreciated.

You are a very warm and emotional individual but unfortunately in the past too many people have taken advantage of this sensitive trait. You need aesthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm understanding.

The situation at this time is one of considerable distress. You feel trapped and you are looking for some way out. You can find solace in the arms of someone who cares so long as there is no long-term emotional involvement.

Matters have not gone well for you. You are experiencing severe stress trying to guard yourself from further disappointments. It would seem that all of your hopes and dreams have not been realised and you are now beginning to doubt yourself. You no longer wish to be further advised by anyone and you insist on going it alone - to control your own destiny. Even though deep down you doubt whether things will get better in the future you have one consolation - and that is that they couldn't possibly get worse. Unwilling to give up anything that you possess, you are looking for some sort of security as a protection against any further setback or loss of position and prestige. You are so negative that you tend to exaggerate your problems and refuse to accept any advice from so called well-meaning friends.

You are presently worried about your future and you feel that whatever you do will go wrong. At this time you are your own worst enemy. All the disappointment that you have experienced, coupled with the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals, have led to anxiety. You would like recognition and a position of trust but you are concerned that these hopes and dreams may not be realised. You are very argumentative and insistent that you are right - maybe you are - but you are pushing too hard. Take it easy, let go, and smile. Smiling and agreeing with people works wonders - try it and see. 

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 I inhabit the border between the intellectual and the inane.


In other news: COMM101 speech is finally over! I am really angry at my TA for not indicating that I had 1 minute left because I kept waiting for her signal and it never came. So I kept stalling for time, because if my speech was less than 4 minutes, I knew I would be penalised. In the end it was something like 4:59. What. The. Fuck.

But I made people laugh! So I am a happy camper. Although during the break I somehow ended up confessing to the prof that my ambition in life was to be a tai tai?? Hence why I decided to turn the quote he gave me around - it was so feminist. My speech would not have been an honest one if I had literally talked about "How wrong it is for a woman to expect the man to build the world she wants, rather than create it herself." But he seemed pleasantly surprised by my interpretation of it! So it's all good. 

"I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don’t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding."

Why couldn't I have gotten this quote instead!

Remember this post I made at the start of summer? Well, I went back to the station to get a car wash today and the same guy was there! And the moment I stepped out of the car he was like "Oh hey! Remember me?" and in my head I was thinking "omfg not you again." And he remembered everything. From the fact that he gave me his phone number to the weird thing about English lessons. It was so zomgggg. I just had to stand there and be smiley and polite -_-

Last night was Steph's 21st birthday party! Celebrating with the Caderas seniors and alumni (I was the only junior there :/) was fun! I mean, I haven't really hung out with them before, but the conversation was immensely entertaining (: And Joshua's (Ling from Yatta's brother) guitar hero singing skills were amusing (even if they did cause our ears to bleed somewhat HAHA). Plus, all the weird massage palour/public toilet stories had me dying of laughter!!

Went to visit Shar at Felt again today (: Was running some errands in the area so dropped by to hang out with her for a while. Was fun!

In other news: I am contactable again! Same number as before. Also, I got a TA job! Hooray for me! Comm's prof asked me to TA for him next semester.

If I said that Taylor Swift's Fearless album is absolutely perfect and I love it, would you lose all respect for any vague musical credibility that I may have possibly held?

Because I swear only Rachel Yamagata's Happenstance and John Mayer's Continuum have made me feel as sentimental. And grouping Taylor Swift with those 2 just makes me feel like I'm slowly going insane.

 Even though my shoulder + neck + head have been hurting like crazy and I am convinced that my end is nearing, this week hasn't been so bad grades-wise! Marketing midterm brought great happiness! CAT midterm was slightly less than I hoped, but still good, and marketing group report was SRSLY? I didn't actually think we'd do that well. I didn't feel very satisfied with that piece of work when I handed it in. But hooray anyway (:

But oh my neck hurts ): 

Oh and I went to Union Square last night and it was empty-ish so I was happy at that too! Because space to dance = awesome. Plus, even though I went late and had to pay cover, I managed to get 2 drinks free (because I am a student! So one extra complimentary drink for me!).

 Mid-term break is over ): Here is a brief summary of what I did, because I'm getting slightly tired of reading articles about Gifted Education (in a fit of madness I decided that my COMM101 speech would be about abolishing GEP. But not in a "we hate GEP" way. More of an "everybody should benefit from the awesomely fun stuff we did in primary school!" way)

Monday: Went shopping with Steph! ION Orchard is HUGE! Caderas AGM after that was amusing.

Tuesday: FT Formal Dining was a disaster. I will never make it as a socialite ): Union Square was fun! Oh redloveclassic ,I had no idea that Elliot was your friend! Also, met Seng and Wang there. 

Me: HELLO! What's your name?
Wang: errr...Han Chen?
Me: YOU'RE WANG! I'M ELAINA!
Wang: um...<does my cookie-eating impersonation>
Me: OMFG YOU STILL REMEMBER THAT???

Wednesday: Bummed at home. Union Square again! Then Zouk! Saw Chock (as usual), Hansel, Shar, Yinkae, Jonathan Lim, Louis, Mitch, Peter, Ryan Gomes etc etc.

Thursday: Met Shar and Shis for lunch at Din Tai Fung. Went to school to study. Had photoshoot. WENT TO TIMBRE FOR THE FIRST TIME.

Friday: Sat around studying the whole day. Then had marketing meeting. How uneventful.

 Death is so sudden. It scares me.

Today you went by in a blur. I almost didn't recognise the face that peered out of the window. The lack of immediacy it took to connect the face to the name to the memories and the emotions was surprising to me. Even now as I recall that instant, I cannot recreate your face in my mind. I see the pavement, and the red car. I see the road, and the pattern of her dress. I see grey metal.

But all I remember of you are your spectacles. 

Has it really been so long?